My so called life.

I'm at work and it is slowwwww.

 

I might be moving out of my apartment soon and moving in with some people at work cause:

a.) Living by yourself is expensive

b.) Living by yourself is boring

 

So in conclusion I am poor and bored.

Not good.

 

I still have no idea what I want to do with my life. But I've finally just decided not to worry about it. I'm young, and worring about it will just make my life stressful. And stress makes wrinkles and pimples and gross stuff. And I don't want that.

 

 

I...

1. I moved to Seattle
2. Got a job at an Airline, woo free flights for me
3. Move into my new apartment the third week of Oct.
4. Have a new fling, but not too sure I'm that into him :/


Kinda freaked out about #4. How do you tell someone you're just not that into them, without completely ripping out their heart and stomping on it? Seriously, am I a total bitch? I need help. I'm drowning in a pool of my own thoughts.


SOMEONE SAVE ME!

So me and Tim broke up about a month and half ago. One year and three months gone. I had to, he needed to grow up. Doesn't make it an easier though. Everything would be ok if he didn't do certain things or didn't act certain ways. But I can't make him change. I could only let him go and hope that he'd make the best of himself...


I once had this theory that people never fell out of love. If this were to happen, they were never in love in the first place. I truely believed this. Now, not so much...

"Youve got your ball
Youve got your chain
Tied to me tight tie me up again
Whos got their claws
In you my friend
Into your heart Ill beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock
And sweet you roll
Lost for you Im so lost for you
You come crash into me
And I come into you"

-DMB



What a beautiful song.

Haven't updated in a long time. Not much is new with me. I've just been dreading going to school every morning, for some reason it's so freaking hard to drag my lazy butt out of bed. Other then that working in my parents office becomes more and more boring each day, so it's a good thing that I start my new job tomorrow at The Childrens Place (yay for me!)

Nothing else to say.
Bye Bye.

8 months and 5 days

Tomorrow = 3 months for Tim and I

 

 

 

Yayayayayayayayayayay!

 

 

I love him....

Alright so I'm sorry for the last blog because I was just ranting the whole time and now I feel like a big buttface. 

 

 

Yay for life.

I love life.

Life is good.

 

School could be better but I don't really care anymore.  I can't wait to graduate, although I skip class too much.  I need to stop doing that pronto.  But I can't stop myself, school is just a big butthole, and I don't like big buttholes. Ew I'm gross.

 

Basically I don't want to do anything lately though.  I just want to sleep. I don't want to clean, I don't want to go to school, I don't wan't to work...is that bad? Perhaps.  I need caffiene lots and lots and lots lots lotsssssssssssss. Or some energy pills would be pretty nice.

 

Spring break is in two weeks.

What shall I do?

Decisions decisions...

Oh the wonderous adventures I will have.

Hmmm...so somethings happened that made me wonder about a lot of stuff.  How do I know that what everybody tells me is true?  Well of course I'm not going to believe some random person on the street, but I'm talking about friends, family, and people that I'm close to. If theres anybody in the world who I should be able to trust it's them, but it doesn't always work out way.

 

Why do people have to lie and manipulate? Is it really necessary?  What enjoyment do you get out of it? Must you make someone feel so low about themself in order to make yourself feel better? If so, you need to leave this planet that we call Earth, immediately.  It's never really bothered me before until last night, when I was told something by a certain someone.  It's sickening how someone can be so fake/selfish/mean.  How can someone just sit there, look me straight in the eye, and lie? Wtf? Seriously people, theres a cool new thing and it's called caring about things other than yourself.

 

AND!

 

Why are people fake? Why do they feel the need to act different ways around different people just to fit in? Who cares if those buttholes think!  If they don't like you for who you are then they aren't worth it. 

 

This aggrivates me so much.

 

 

 

 

Stop lieing to yourself and everyone around you.

Just be yourself damnit.

I am so happy right now.